life has been interesting lately. mostly because i can’t decide if i’m happy or unsatisfied, but i guess this happens a lot.
i moved into the broken hearts club, and for maybe another week, i’m staying in mel’s room while she’s still in thailand. then i’ll finally have a room of my own again. strange. but good. i can start settling in so that i can start getting restless. i don’t know what’s going on with me. i can’t ever decide who i want to be.
i wish i had a partner for these adventures. and i wish i could figure out which creative outlet to use right now.
i’m about to start working 6 days a week to catch up financially, which i’m not looking forward to. it always makes me feel like i’m wasting my life when i spend so much of my time fulfilling obligations. but i’ve got $14 in my bank account right now, so… i don’t have a choice, i guess.
on the plus side, there have been a decent amount of sunny days spent at the beach lately. and some friendship developing, and sleeping outside, and reading good books, and dancing, and feeling like i’m on the verge of creating things (not actually acting on it, but surely someday soon). i’ve been trying to play guitar again, and making mix tapes. i guess it’s summer.
i’m destroying my foot, probably. it’s sore a lot again. and i’m not going easy on it. i hope it doesn’t take forever to heal, but it will.
i’ve got a lot more boring things to write about, but i won’t.